Last post, we talked about goals.
Ya know, those things we all make, but I never seem to keep up with. Even though I have a chronic inability to complete my goals, I still want to make some. But instead of doing it by month (I’ve learned that I’m not the kind of person who pays attention to dates), we’re going to do it by Macro – Mecro – Micro.
I also was nominated for the Liebster Award, so we’re going to do that. How do you even say Liebster? Leeb-stir? Lib-stair? Lie-b-stehr?
And finally, I want to talk about improvement. Again. I know I talked about it during APADO, but that was 31 posts ago, so I think it deserves another post. Improvement is big deal with me.
*clap clap* let’s just get into it
The Liebster Award
I’m so glad that Jewel nominated me for the Liebster Award! Jewel is one of my good friends, and I love both of her blogs to death. Thanks, Jewel!
So, with acknowledgements made, here we go.
What do you want to accomplish by your next birthday? Gah, I can’t spill my goals yet! But I want to accomplish surviving for an entire year. Hehe, just kidding. I’d like to be more fluent in Hebrew. טס עדיין לא טובה בדיבור עברית.
What needs to be invented that has not been invented yet? A bed with spikes that makes getting up in the morning significantly easier…>:)
What is your favorite song? DON’T MAKE ME CHOOSE. Can I make a top ten? Hello Future (tobyMac), Take On Me (a-ha), Wolf Bite (Owl City), Love Song (Royal Tailor), Right On Time (Aaron Cole), WaveWalker (Citizen Way), Pompeii (Bastille), The Wolf (SIAMES), Get Down Get Down (KJ-52) and Transformed (Shonlock). And like, thirty million more.
What is your favorite movie? The original Thor. But my favorite thing to watch is Batman: The Animated Series. Like, I’ll pick a few episodes of that over a movie anyday.
When people are told to guess a number between 1 and 10, which do you think is the most common answer? I think…7. I can’t really say why. This is a cool question!
Do you have a bad habit? If so, what? Shhh…I bite my nails. And use the eraser on the end of the pencil when I’m drawing. *cowers*
Soft Pretzels or Hard Pretzels? SOFT PRETZELSSS they always make me think of Six Flags. And they’re amazing.
Would you rather own a fish or a snake? Definitely a snake. They’re way more interesting, and wouldn’t it be neat to own a potentially deadly creature?
What is something you know how to do that you could teach? I feel like I could teach anyone how to be socially awkward, but I don’t think anyone would want to know how to do that. 9_9 So let’s just stick to beginner horseback riding skills, because I do teach those on a regular basis.
If you could be famous for 1 thing, what would it be? I’d want to be famous for making a circumnavigation, possibly because I want an excuse to buy a campervan.
What are the 3 most important qualities in a friend? Loyal (because who wants friends who never back them up?), sensitive (able to tell when others are having a problem), and fun (wanting to do fun stuff instead of just sitting and talking).
11 Facts About Me
(that realistically no one wants to read but i mUsT fOlLoW tHe rUlEs)
- I have a bunch of Assorted Unstable Jobs: babysitting, cleaning my dad’s work, mowing lawns in the summer, and professional weirdo.
- I only drink diet sodas – not because of health reasons, but for some reason I find regular soda really bitter…?
- I have a really strange obsession with commercials. They fascinate me.
- I have touched a human brain, and I think I can still smell the formaldehyde.
- I can’t do monkey bars because I have Chicken Arms™.
- I have four sisters and two brothers.
- I really, really, really love peaches. I’m not kidding. Get me a peach and I will squeal.
- I don’t like documentaries. They’re kinda boring.
- I can’t stand it when someone is raking leaves and they scrape the tines of the rake on the concrete. It’s like the sound of nails on a chalkboard except three bazillion times worse.
- I have a lot of t-shirts, but most of them are black.
- I used to want to be a doctor when I grew up. Now I’m leaning toward illustrator…but who knows, I may still do medical work. Or culinary arts. I’d really love to have a food truck. The only problem is, I can’t cook to save my life.
Tagging Some Fwiends:
(i put it alphabetically, stop squabbling)
(i am texan, i can say y’all)
What was your favorite TV show/movie when you were a kid?
What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?
What do you think is the best way to start the day?
What is one of your favorite smells?
If you were suddenly put on a stage and told to deliver a speech, what would you talk about?
Do you think Wikipedia is a reliable source?
What’s the worst advice you’ve ever received?
What age would you like to live to?
What do you want carved on your gravestone?
Have you ever saved someone’s life?
Opinion on chow mein?
Okay, realistically, that took much more than I thought and I could honestly make a post with just that. But I feel obliged to actually fulfill one of my promises. For once.
*clap* next topic *clap*
The Stuff I Need To Do And Get Better At (2019 Edition)
As I start to think about goals, I’m wondering if it’s too late to talk about goals, seeing as we’re already a week into January…but let’s say that it’s for the next year. So I’ll open these…next January 7th?
(translation: goals that are really huge and untangible)
- Get better at managing my time. Work with, not against, myself. Use the precious days I have in this season of life wisely.
- Unlock the motivation I know I have and banish the laziness that cripples me.
- Be unafraid to speak my mind and talk about important, serious things in all my mediums (writing, art, blogging, etc.)
(translation: goals that are still huge, but actually physically achievable)
- Write three 50k novels in April, July, and November (Nanowrimo ftw!)
- Come up with a good comic concept and illustrate ten pages of it.
- Relaunch Steeplechase (!!!)
- Post at least twice monthly on both of my blogs.
(translation: very achievable, given I don’t procrastinate too much)
- Get more practice making graphics.
- Finish the MAP part I’m still working on.
- Be more active on the Story Embers forums.
- Make a post explaining MBTI!
- Keep up with all my awesome friends over email.
- Buy a copy of Drawing On the Right Side of the Brain by Betty Edwards.
- Stay on top of schoolwork.
- Make myself like photography. Ugh.
It may not as complicated as last year’s goals post, but considering how many I failed, I think simple is best.
I feel like this blog is a never-ending Hallmark drama. Will Tess ever do anything she promises she’ll do? This year might be the year, but that’s what I thought last year, and what I think every time I make a promise…
*exits stage left with an existential breakdown in tow*
I Talk About Art For 500 Words And You Inevidably Scroll Past
I go through a specific cycle with all my work, but particularly with my art. I’ll get semi-okay at something, and be proud of it for approximately three days. Then I’ll realize it needs improvement. But as that realization turns into bitterness and I try and try over and over again without seeing change, I get to a point where I wonder if I’m ever going to get better.
Then, right as I think I should just stop doing what I love to do – clink! The penny drops, as Richard Williams would say.
And then, as I’m sure you’ve guessed, the cycle repeats itself.
It’s no secret that I battle self-esteem issues, that I feel inadequate a lot of the time, and that my depression takes over my motivation if I let it. I think this happens to all creative people, to be honest. Without the right kind of encouragement, it becomes a monster that controls both your creativity and your confidence.
Every time I get to that part of the cycle, I have to force myself to keep pushing. To keep trying. To make one more crappy drawing in hopes of making a good one next time.
And then, after too much headache and heartbreak, I finally get through it.
In this particular episode of Tess’ Life Gets A Little Bit Better, it all got started with an Action Bible. I got one because I am completely in love with the art. It’s so dynamic and detailed and the shading and it’s pretty much a Masterclass on drawing cloth.
I wouldn’t say I felt inspired, because the feeling is closer to jealousy, but I decided to copy some of the pictures.
In past, I’ve discounted copywork as a viable form of learning to draw. I had previously thought it was cheating. Or something. Or maybe it’s just that I never found anything that was what I wanted to draw.
But after doing some copywork, I’ve seen drastic improvement in my artwork. I’ve since branched off from copying again, after these studies I did. But the lines I made, the shading I did, all that – it stuck.
Here’s a little redraw of the piece I made for an APADO post in October.
I’ve even been drawing in my journal before bed. I think I’m back on the right track.
So if you’re feeling down – if you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel – if your feet are dragging in whatever it is you do…
…don’t give up. Relief is coming. Give it one more push, even though you think there’s no hope for you. Try just one more time. And one more time after that. And still one more time after that.
If everything was easy to learn, there’d be no value in it, right?
So prove that you have what it takes. Go give it one more try.
You’ve got this.
Thus endeth the Conglomeration Of Half-Post Ideas.
Although it changed gears faster than a 21-speed bicycle, I hope you enjoyed. I’d love to hear what you think. Leave a comment! Pretty please?