(Oof. I guess I’ll have to explain what happened to those Nano recaps. Or to my blog in general. Smh.)
(If you’re looking at this in your WordPress reader, it doesn’t have the same effect. Read it on my blog, won’t you?)
(Also: this graphic is possibly the most adorable thing I have ever created. I almost feel guilty for being this aesthetic)
For now, we’re going to pretend that I’ve been true to my promise, that you’ve been reading the posts I’ve been writing, and that I haven’t up and disappeared for two months. I need to learn to stop promising things I can’t deliver.
The last bit of 2018 has been hectic and crazy – although there has been time for some fun…
I’ve been on two trips to see family and been allowed plenty of time to rest after a very stressful Nanowrimo experience (we’ll get to that!)
I would never have guessed that this year would turn out the way it did. In fact, I was pretty certain I knew what I was doing at the beginning of this year. Exactly 360 days ago, I wrote a post called Goals. I don’t think I need to say how different it is from my actual achievements.
Let’s revisit these goals, aka these rash promises. (See? I never learn.)
Post at least a dozen posts here on Steeplechase. Hm. My stats say I posted…nine times. I’m going to call this half-done, because I was going strong at about a post a week until March. Ugh.
Finish my part for the MAP I’m working on (and write a blog post about the process). Okay. I didn’t end up finishing that MAP part until June. But I did finish it, and I wrote a post about it. Half-done.
Finish plotting my April Camp Nano project. Garsh. What was my April Camp Nano project? I think it was Project Orion. I spent April Camp Nano plotting PO, so…I think this is also half-done.
Help my team win AAWC. We lost hard, only getting third (last!) place despite my best last-minute efforts. Failed.
Learn diagonals. This is a horseback riding goal, and I don’t remember exactly when, as Richard Williams would say, “the penny dropped”. I do know that I’ve mastered it now. We’re going to call this an obliteration. Yeet!
Have a birthday. Ehehe, why is this even a goal? But I had a birthday. And I’m about to have another one. GUYS, THIS YEAR JUST FLEW BY. Obliterated.
Do more Art Dumps. I did two in February, so this is obliterated! Thank goodness I didn’t set an exact number. HEHEHE.
Do Camp Nano! Undeniably obliterated. I talked about it in this post, so I’m not going to go through the rigors again. (But that post contains more unfulfilled promises! Yikes!)
Finish my Wreck This Journal (and do a WTJ tour). Nope. I’m still not done with this. Failed.
Join another MAP. I joined my second MAP in late June/early July? Not exactly sure. I think I’m going to call this an obliteration, though.
Learn to draw human faces. HAHAHAHAHA no. Still no. Failed.
Replot Project Orion. Wait. Hold on. Does this mean I wasn’t originally going to replot PO? Huh. I can’t remember. Half-done, because it still doesn’t really have a plot. And at this point I’m wondering if it ever will.
Hold a giveaway. Steeplechase did turn two years old, but I didn’t hold a giveaway. I barely even acknowledged it at all. Welp, there’s always next year. Failed.
Aaaand post more on Steeplechase. Did I post at all? Three times? We’re calling that technically “more” so…obliterated. Wow, this feels like cheating.
Julynowrimo. Undeniably obliterated. And I actually like what I came out with? What? I mean, it’s definitely not perfect, but The Sentinel is the best thing I’ve written so far.
Ride Traveller. Aka my bike. I don’t think I accounted for the fact that I would get crazy tall? And be too big for him? Um? Yeah, I’m 5′ 9″ now and a 24″ bike isn’t going to cut it. It’s not like I could help it, but this is, unfortunately, another failure.
Read three long books (and review them here on Steeplechase). I don’t remember if I read three long books, but seeing as I didn’t post on Steeplechase all summer….noap. Failure.
Learn at least three new riding skills. I can canter in full seat, jump verticals, and use rein contact to my advantage now…hey, I think this is obliterated!
Take a dare. Well, this goal’s specific. We went to Six Flags a lot over the summer, and I definitely dared myself to do a ton. This is an obliteration. I think.
Get in physical shape. I’m still not sure where I stand on my physique….? Let’s say half-done, because I was really active, but it’s not like I’m super fit or anything.
Document it all on Steeplechase. As aforementioned – nope. Sorry. Ugh. Failed.
Plot out a Nano. I tried. But I also learned that I am an undeniable pantser. So even if I’d planned something out, it’s not like it would have worked. I’m going to say half-done, not because I did any planning, but more because this goal was stupid. See what I mean about having no idea what this year had in store for me?
Write that Nano. I…did? I didn’t write what I intended to write this Nano, but it was something.
I guess now is a perfect opportunity to say why I haven’t posted in like, two months. As usual, I joined the throes of writers racing to complete their novels, but this was an exceptionally gruelling Nano. I had planned to write a sequel to The Sentinel, but after wasting two weeks of Nano being unmotivated, I did a Tess-classic Nanoditch. But even after said Nanoditch, I was still not motivated.
It was to the point where I was bewailing my situation so badly that people had started to give up on me. (As in, “why are you still writing when you insanenumberofwords behind?”) But my mom, MY WONDERFUL MOM, kept telling me that I could do it. I knew I was going to do it or die trying.
The bottom line? I ended up writing the final 33k words in 3 days. I pulled an all-nighter on the last day. I wrote all the way up till the last second, pretty much. But I did it. I’m so proud, but also ashamed, because there should never be an excuse for doing what I did.
Here’s a little video I took at 5am on November 31st, after my all-nighter, with 10k still to write (subtitled):
Yeah that should describe my mental state for all of November.
I did end up finishing a dumb novel called A Hundred Paper Stars, which is…just another thing to add to my repretoire, and nothing more. Though pointless, it’s pretty fun.
So…obliterated? Yeah, I guess. Remind me never to do it this way again.
One more MAP. Because of Nano, I’m still working on my “summer” MAP. So failed.
Get in bed at some sort of normal time. HAHAHAHAHA oh my gosh it’s so funny how I thought I’d be good at doing this by this time! Nope. Not in October, definitely not in November, and not even now. 48930248230% failed. (I was up at 1:30 last night reading my new Action Bible, just to prove a point.)
Make a Hanukkah tag/blog series. Hanukkah went soooo fast for me. So – uh – failed.
Actually buy all my family Hanukkah presents. But hey, I actually achieved this! Obliterated!
Post. On. Your. Own. Flippin. Blog. *cough* APADO *cough*. Catastrophically obliterated.
Total Goals: 28
Goals Completed: 15
Success Rate: ~54%
wow that’s low
2018 has been a surprising year in many ways. I’ve done so many things I never thought I would have done, yet I haven’t done a lot of things I thought I really would. And I regret that, because it’s hard to move on from something. Yet, at the same time, I don’t regret it. Because where would I be without moving forward?
Stan Lee recently passed on. That was shocking news for me, seeing as he is one of my heroes. However, I’ve decided that his motto is going to be 2019’s motto:
onward and upward.
Without change, there is no growth. Without growth, there is no greatness.
Okay, I feel like I’m overdoing my announcement now. But maybe I actually don’t want to reveal my dreams for Steeplechase, or what I’m thinking about doing with it…
Yeah, I don’t think I want to say what I’m going to do with this little blog next year. Although guesses are welcome…
Here’s to an exciting, fulfilling 2019!
merry late christmas and happy early new year to everyone!
Sayonara for now,
(okay I can’t take it, I’m getting my own domain)